First time at AA

Day 6

Went to AA yesterday


I walked into an AA meeting today, felt very welcome and it slowly dawned on me, every person in this room had a first time, they smiled at me when I got the courage to look them in the eye.

I put my hand up when ask if there was anyone new.

I bravely spoke when asked to share, (you do not have to) but I said,  "I had made it here so what the hell"!

I began with my story, honestly (it's the only way now if I'm going to live this new life)
I told them how much I drank and when I finally realised after talking myself out of the fact that I had a problem, how could I??  When I only drank Pinot Gris and Chardonay, I would never even touch a glass of Sav does'nt that mean I so not have a problem, they laughed and nodded along side me, I cried and said sorry for that.  The lovely lady next to me took my hand and patted it, I felt very safe and welcome.

It was a really fantastic experience, other people shared and some talking directly to me, with their first time and telling me how much AA had helped them, it was great to hear and have another person tell me not to give up, it will get easier.

At the end, so many people came up and said well done, you are so brave and then alot of them gave me their phone number and told me to call, whenever I needed or wanted to.

A wonderful man who I had seen in the front row said to me as I was talking to a lady, " Just rember alcohol is a theif, it will rob you blind, it will rob you of everything"  It really hit me hard but so true, if I kept going the way I was I could have lost everything that trully matters to me in this world, my children. 
"Not on my watch" or should I say Not on my sober watch!!!

Another day and another 5 o'clock under my belt!!